Metamorphosing; Capturing the sweetness in life

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Haha.. if you happen to press the play buttoon in the list of music i have attached by the side..

You might be like me - feels like clubbing

posted by HeNG @ 11:36 PM 0 comments

It has been 9 years, so what's the differences?

"I want to complete my Masters in Physics! I want to be a teacher who shape and mould the future generation! I want to be a teacher who helps a child to see what he is and how he can make himself a somebody one day! I want to be more than a teacher!" These were what i thought since i first touched physics textbook.

9 years gone, in just a blink. Now, sitiing in front of the laptop, i'm someone who is about to step into the working society and face the real world, the real working adult world - the world which seems to be spinning for the sake of money, fame and power.

"You got to find some work, so that you will not be hungry."
"You got to earn money!"
"Be a useful man, go and find a staple job!"

It just seems that when the age moves up the 'hill' and what's in lie for you are winkles, problems and more troubles.

I was flipping through the photo albums and was 'thrown' back to the times where maths was just simply 1 + 1 = 2, there wasn't differentiation, matrices and linear algebra to make me go nuts. Calculations of interest was so simply a one equation formula. Mary just has a little lamp and wasn't heavily involved in money exchange problems and chemical reactions. An ant was just a creature that look different from us and wasn't being brought to study. The thinking was so much more simpler and easy to be comprehended.

Friends were almost everywhere. Recess was a time to play 'catching', challenge 'zero-point' and competing 'hopscotch'. After school was a time to play around with good friends and watch
spiderman' or 'TMNT'. Weekends were meant for badminton and basketball with friends. Camps were a time for havoc and chaos.

Now, stars are more than heavenly bodies; sun was a ball of hydrogen atoms undergoing nuclear reaction; walking is an application of netwonian mechanics and biological digestion; so on.

Have i turned into a more knowledgable guy with a bit more intelligence or processing thoughts? Or have i become someone who is thinking too much and pondering overly? Or have i become someone who seems like a leech? What i have become?

I have lost high percentage of child-like thinking, i have lose faith in my things.

9 years, would i lose my direction and ultimate goal?
Have i?

The earth rotation mechanism has never changed since the big bang (maybe?). The process of aging seems to be intact and unperishable. But the inner desire and thoughts have seems to be evolving daily. Scary..

9 years later, where would i be? Would i be standing in front of a big bunches of young adults talking about physics and principles in life? Would i be still on the old spot? Would i be more matured and less emoti0nal?

Who knows?

posted by HeNG @ 11:39 PM 0 comments