I wonder when..
These few days have been joyous and fulfilling to me - taking the stage with a dance routine, receiving many good news and bumping into my former students. I love every moment of my life. Things have been running smoothly and ideally as of what i have planned out.
The thursday, that has just past, was one of the days which i hated the most - i met someone of who i shouldn't even meet at all. All along these years, i have thought that i have put everything behind. But then again, the fear and apprehension just came back to me upon our accidental meetup. All those unhappy past incidents, seemed so inevitably, came back to my memories. To move on completely seems like moving Mount St Helen out of Earth.
No matter what had happened, i love the every moment now.
No matter how fast i tried to walk, i'm always having this feeling of confusion and loss.
Somehow or rather, it seems that no matter how fast i tried to walk in my own life, i'm always encountering this feeling (a mixture of loss, fear and grieve) at the cross junctions or some parts of the low energy cycle motion.
It's just seems to inevitable. How i wish my recess week is here to play, for at least i can find some time to chill and cool myself out of this frame of motion.
I'm just too tired to think of anything now, a moment of frustration and fear.
The 135th post of the blog.. A new beginning and a new life in me
Today is the first day 2009, and i guess this will be used to mark a new chapter of my life. Year 2008 seems to be quite a mess (for me). There were many things that turned out unexpectedly and tough to comprehend.
I believe year 2009 would be a fresh beginning for me, a new life. In fact, i guess it would be a new me.
Happy New Year, everyone.
Wondering the wonders in my life
I guess, at times, i got to admit that life seems to be a little predestinated. Upon the receival of my exams result (two days ago), i still to believe that for every step i carved or planned, there will always be a 'guider' to give me the assurance that i'm still in the path that i want to be.
Life.. It seems to be full of wonders.
Just a few blinks, 2008 is ending soon.
I came back to Singapore on 8th Jan 2008 (after my 33 days of advertures with one of my bros). I would say that the trip was one of the most unexpected one (among all the overseas trips that i have encountered) because the trip was decided within 5 secs and with a friend i knew less than 2 days. I'm still quite amazed at my own implusive decision.
Within 10 hours (in a day), i reached a new land on my own (with a friend that i have known less than 1 year). Trusting him completely to bring me around the country and meeting people from all walks of life. Sometimes whether this was one of the plans that were laid to me by fate.
I'm lucky to have a bunch of friends around me, protecting me and looking after me. Many times in life, i think i'm a bit stubborn, a bit old fashioned, a bit nuisance, a bit crazy and a bit noisy，but i'm grateful for the bunch of understanding friends.
Year 2008 is ending very soon. Another year is going pass and yet another year is here (with many surprizes in life).
Suddenly, i realized...
Went for a short ball game just now.. Flashbacks just couldn't be held but to arise again and again..
All of us have seems to aged.. Time flies..
Lao da mentioned that maybe it is good time for him to retire.. I froze in space..
One year is going to pass once again...
Time seems to fly faster this year (perhaps, the earth's rotation is relatively faster this year). Soon, it will be december once again. Soon, it will be a time for me to relax for a week or two before i take up new teaching assignment and challenge myself to greater height.
I guess i have been procastinating badly this year. Till now, i'm still wondering where i should head to for my one week break in december. I must escape from urban. I must runaway from reality for a week. I yearn to slack for the entire 1 week.
Where should i hide for one week in december?