I came across this book and this text..
The youth and the transiting people tends to lose their direction in life this is due to the environment that they have to adapt to. In normal situation, a person, who facing or about to face a new environment, will try to search for a new identity. This new identity is to help them to survive in this new change. But, the cruel truth is, at times, this new identity might be too ideal (in the perspective of the youth facing this situation), that is, they would still not be able to fit into the new change. When that happens, the youth, once again, will lose this identity and direction. Once this occur, the youth will feel confused, but, they would not consult anyone for anything (this is because youths tend to have very high ego).
If that really happens, what can the adults do?
Actually, nothing (that is sad, man). But then, we can act as a guardian angel, we can only stay behind them and look at what they are doing. Don't interfere, let them grow. Let them fly, once they are down then they will know what they can and what they cannot.
Sounds like what we (i'm not exception either) would have and bound to face at certain stages in life.
What about friends? It seems that at times, it seems so inevitable, we would lose some friends (be it they left your train or otherwise). It would be a pain and it would definitely impact us heavily in some way (positively or negatively).
I had an incident that really impacted me very negatively the whole of last night. It was so bad that i really refused to work or even talk. After that incident, it seems that i might have failed as a friend, or might failed in some other ways.
I met a friend (by right, it should be very very closed friend) at Clementi Bus Stop yesterday afternoon (should be about 2:30pm). A person was wearing pale yellow polo tee-shirt, coffee brown bermudas and a familiar black sling bag (why is it so familiar? Because i went with this friend to buy this bag months ago). That was not the first time i bumped into this person (In this case, we let this person be AA), to be precise, that was the 11th time i bumped into him (face-to-face, side-by-side) since the start of this year.
So what is the big deal about this issue?
Have you met a very very very closed friend (basically a closet) face-to-face on the street 11 times and he/she pretended not seeing you (as if he does not know you at all). For all the 11 times. Well, what would you conclude (as a normal human with some dignity and pride)? Well, that would be a conclusion for me at those instances, when i bumped into AA for all the 11times.
How come someone (who was so closed and who you are quite closed that) do this? What happened to the 2years of friendship (countless nightouts, numerous incidents and memory-filling activities)? Just why?
Many possible reasons could be given. Well, before throwing in some reasons in, try this..
Apple, Orange, Pear, University, Grape, Cheery.
Apple, Orange, Pear, University, Grape, Cheery.
So which word is caught your first instinct?
Well, what about a guy wearing bright yellow tee-shirt or bright orange tee-shirt, with copper-brown tinted hair in a crowd of dull-coloured crowd? Would he be quite obvious in this case?
Now, you know what i mean?
Perhaps, the problem might still lies on my side. Did i do anything seriously wrong? (If you know me, what would be your conclusion?)
So where is the fault line?
So now, you get how painful i was the whole of yesterday?
So what happened next? I gave up thinking and wondering. I guess the following theory would be a good one for me to use now...
By choosing, you have already decided what would be the dire consequences. When other options were being closed off by you, you have no reasons to regret, and you cannot afford to regret anymore. In this case, since an option was pathed out (be it both or one party doing it), i guess this is the one and only choice that i could choose (I have no other choice already, don't I?).
Blame me not then.
Sound scary, right? Well, i have hold on and struggled for months over this part of my journey. Since the final stunt (Chocolates surprizes) does not do any miracles anymore, i guess i have to fulfil what i have decided when i chose to use my last stunt.
I guess these time could be utilize better over to other friends, buddies and brothers. Let happy times continue to flow and let happy moments be with them wherever they go.
I guess i'm finding my new identity now.
Soon, i would be able to meet up with my xiaodi again. But then, now i have to start thinking of what i have to prepare for his 19th birthday. Suggestions?
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Finally, after much determination, i have went for my 8laps at the track today. Today, after the lessons at school, met up with HJ to do some slow jogging in school, and managed to do it. After which, we went to Vivocity to do some gift hunting. It really feel nice to take a breather out of a week of hectic schedule...
Will upload photos soon. Stay tune!!
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