Metamorphosing; Capturing the sweetness in life

It's rather funny that to know that after you enter into the working industry, there are pros and cons in it, and it seems that cons would be a little more than pros, ya? You get to earn your own bucks and live the life you want to be - have car, getting married, have children, buy house, go for holidays... - living independently and 'rich'. But, on the other hand, you would miss out the fun you have with bands of brothers, stoning away, chilling out at sentosa and many more. Losing contacts with close ones might be another problem. So how? Schooling is stress, yet you have time for what you want, maybe poorer.

Sounds like this is an inevitable path that many people would end up. Claiming the passion and love for the profession is one thing, devoted and wholeheartedly loving everyday in the vocation is another issue. So what's your pick? I have 2 to 3 more years to decide what i have to do...

Sometimes, when you received messages/ greetings from close group of brothers and friends would just brighten your day in any way. Pains and aches would just disappear, and the day somehow would just brighten up, smile would reappear on the face. Funny... Just received a message from my dearest xiao di, he's is fine and happyily enjoying himself for his vacation trip.. Hahaz.. good for him...

But then, if you have a close friend (closet) would choose to ignore and walk away from you, what would you do? Emails and short message services seems to have no power to maintain the contacts, in short, you would just lose the contact. What would you do?

I was talking to Vincent gor gor last night, and somehow someone we knew (let's call him A) appeared in our conversation. Vincent gor gor was stunned to hear that i lost contact with A, given that we were quite close back in the green service and in our first sem in uni. (Don't ask me how and why, it just happened and i also dun want such thing to be. And i also want to know what the hell is going on). It drew my attention to many many people that i have bumped into for the past few years in life (few years, i'm still young, ok?)

How many people, whom you knew, would actually be with you when you are down? Ironically, how many people would be with you when you are rich and famous, and have the qualities to help anyone? How many 'bros' and 'closet' you made would actually appeared when you need their support the most?

That's human relationship, i guess. Making you feeling lost at times. Hmmm...

Is it meant to be this way? When you are 'useless' to a friend (in terms of helping him in any way), he would just dump you away, and pretend not to know you when you two bump into each other in the street? So much for my belief..

Sighed...

How many bros, whom you have made in your lifetime, would actually walk the whole journey with you? Can anyone enlighten me?

Simply sad, and feeling useless..

Is there something call forever?

Age cannot be forever the same; you would get older and older..

Health cannot be forever the same; you would get weaker at times..

Intelligence cannot be forever; it will improve when you see more..

How about friendship?

Haiz... I guess i got to pick up and run.. Lose confidence ans security once again..