Metamorphosing; Capturing the sweetness in life

I wonder when..

2009-04-04T21:10:00.000+08:00

These few days have been joyous and fulfilling to me - taking the stage with a dance routine, receiving many good news and bumping into my former students. I love every moment of my life. Things have been running smoothly and ideally as of what i have planned out.

But then...

The thursday, that has just past, was one of the days which i hated the most - i met someone of who i shouldn't even meet at all. All along these years, i have thought that i have put everything behind. But then again, the fear and apprehension just came back to me upon our accidental meetup. All those unhappy past incidents, seemed so inevitably, came back to my memories. To move on completely seems like moving Mount St Helen out of Earth.

No matter what had happened, i love the every moment now.

Dance, anyone?

No matter how fast i tried to walk, i'm always having this feeling of confusion and loss.

2009-02-15T18:00:00.003+08:00

Somehow or rather, it seems that no matter how fast i tried to walk in my own life, i'm always encountering this feeling (a mixture of loss, fear and grieve) at the cross junctions or some parts of the low energy cycle motion.

It's just seems to inevitable. How i wish my recess week is here to play, for at least i can find some time to chill and cool myself out of this frame of motion.

I'm just too tired to think of anything now, a moment of frustration and fear.

The 135th post of the blog.. A new beginning and a new life in me

2009-01-01T15:12:00.002+08:00

Today is the first day 2009, and i guess this will be used to mark a new chapter of my life. Year 2008 seems to be quite a mess (for me). There were many things that turned out unexpectedly and tough to comprehend.

I believe year 2009 would be a fresh beginning for me, a new life. In fact, i guess it would be a new me.

Happy New Year, everyone.
Cheers!!

Wondering the wonders in my life

2008-12-25T23:15:00.002+08:00

I guess, at times, i got to admit that life seems to be a little predestinated. Upon the receival of my exams result (two days ago), i still to believe that for every step i carved or planned, there will always be a 'guider' to give me the assurance that i'm still in the path that i want to be.

Life.. It seems to be full of wonders.

Just a few blinks, 2008 is ending soon.

2008-12-08T22:49:00.002+08:00

I came back to Singapore on 8th Jan 2008 (after my 33 days of advertures with one of my bros). I would say that the trip was one of the most unexpected one (among all the overseas trips that i have encountered) because the trip was decided within 5 secs and with a friend i knew less than 2 days. I'm still quite amazed at my own implusive decision.

Within 10 hours (in a day), i reached a new land on my own (with a friend that i have known less than 1 year). Trusting him completely to bring me around the country and meeting people from all walks of life. Sometimes whether this was one of the plans that were laid to me by fate.

I'm lucky to have a bunch of friends around me, protecting me and looking after me. Many times in life, i think i'm a bit stubborn, a bit old fashioned, a bit nuisance, a bit crazy and a bit noisy，but i'm grateful for the bunch of understanding friends.

Year 2008 is ending very soon. Another year is going pass and yet another year is here (with many surprizes in life).

Suddenly, i realized...

2008-10-19T23:28:00.002+08:00

Went for a short ball game just now.. Flashbacks just couldn't be held but to arise again and again..

All of us have seems to aged.. Time flies..

Lao da mentioned that maybe it is good time for him to retire.. I froze in space..

Wonder..

2008-09-26T21:56:00.003+08:00

One year is going to pass once again...

Time seems to fly faster this year (perhaps, the earth's rotation is relatively faster this year). Soon, it will be december once again. Soon, it will be a time for me to relax for a week or two before i take up new teaching assignment and challenge myself to greater height.

Soon..

I guess i have been procastinating badly this year. Till now, i'm still wondering where i should head to for my one week break in december. I must escape from urban. I must runaway from reality for a week. I yearn to slack for the entire 1 week.

Where should i hide for one week in december?

Sometimes, i think i'm a little hot tempered. And sometimes, i think i'm a bit demanding

2008-09-24T23:55:00.002+08:00

I've been into teaching for 7 to 8 years. Seeing all kinds of students coming into and out of my life; preparing them for all types of exams (O's A's Level, Prelim, Promo); teaching physics and chemistry in all my lifetime. By right, i should have been a patience and understanding teacher or educator who would know how to prepare them for exams.

But then, i always find myself a little hot-tempered. I will get angry if the students (1 week before exams) tell me that he forget and don't know (given that we have gone through ample examples and practises). I will scold students if they don't do the way as stated and as practised.

Sometimes, i will feel very bitchy and demanding. I will nag at the students non-stop from Jurong MRT Station to Khatib MRT Station. I will chase students home to do homework. I will run after the students if i found out that they skipped school or did not study and go out and play. I will message and call my students once in a blue moon to do spot check and nag.

I guess students would have hate me to the core, for all these demanding stuff.

But then again, it's NO PAIN NO GAIN. If a student wants a good results, he would need a demanding ME, a bitchy ME and a naggy ME.

Haiz.. I'm getting more and more hooligan. I guess i'm really the Hooligan Tutor - Gary.

I just feeling a deep sense of satisfaction

2008-09-22T08:29:00.000+08:00

Ha... Ask me.. i will tell you why

少年童真随这一分一秒而流失，人际关系随着一分一秒而变微薄

2008-09-20T20:35:00.004+08:00

小时候老朋友什么都玩
可是毕业之后上班下班
有叙旧没话题
很无奈完成一顿晚饭

内疚也心酸时间太赶爱的太晚
相见的人待到灯火也阑珊
为了不平凡忙忙忙会让人盲
赢到了风光输去了我的心肝
一去不返怎么样补偿
迟了一秒历史不会再转弯
不管怎么样见见想见的脸庞
我有责任去放肆一场活着
总要找人分享

我为了一口饭忘了健康
没有空看医生太忙太赶
喜欢的电影都没精力看完堆在床畔

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总觉得这一切十分贴切。。

Haha, today is a funny day

2008-09-19T00:06:00.002+08:00

Well, i guess today is a funny day.
I suffer from mild dislocation on my right leg. But then, i still feel happy.

Good badminton game, boy:)

Today is mid-autumn festival

2008-09-14T23:32:00.001+08:00

Hmmm...

Happy Mid-Autumn Festival to All:)

Suddenly...

2008-09-09T00:02:00.001+08:00

Suddenly, a mixed feeling came rush over me.

It's not saddness or disappointment, of course. It is just something that i also not too sure how i should describe.

Perhaps it is mainly due to the rate this year is going off..
Too fast that i'm missing out things badly..

Mixed feeling, i guess

2008-08-29T16:12:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was seems to be a special day for me. It's neither any good friend's birthday nor any important anniversary or celebration.

Yesterday was an ordinary thursday; an ordinary school day; an ordinary weekday.

Yup, my students (one current and a ex-student) asked me out to play badminton with them. To me, badminton is very ordinary; but it is the crowd that is not. This ex-student of mine, should i say one of my favorite student, is current in Poly year 1, taking computer engineering. I have not seen him for ages (actually, i think 8 months odd). The moment i saw him yesterday, i was a little shocked - he changed quite alot; very matured and taller.

Mixed feeling, i guess - Happy that there is another student pursuing his dream and future actively; Sad that i'm actually aging. (He used to give me the young and quiet nature; now he has the outgoing and mature look {which is good, which is good for him}. )

Recently, hearing many ex-students' latest updates, set me into deep comfort. My aim for taking up tutoring and planning into teaching has really really grow stronger.

I love teaching.

不知何故。。

2008-08-03T23:46:00.002+08:00

内心的挣扎似乎是件十分痛苦的事。
总想把内心世界的一切用文字来形容。只不过。。

Hmmmm... Simplicity is everything.. Students are best rewards to things..

2008-07-14T23:22:00.002+08:00

I guess i'm in love of being a tutor? (Not yet a teacher, i guess)

I'm overly easily-contented.. Got a good praise from my dear boy boy

Hmm.. what's wrong in me?

2008-07-10T00:08:00.001+08:00

Having been taxed down by many stuffs lately.. My eyes are open from 6am to 1am daily, inclusive to weekends and public holidays.

Things just come in like a spoiled tap - never ending and overflowing.

What is happening?

One year...

2008-06-22T22:14:00.001+08:00

22th June...

Haha...

hmmm... is it good if you don't know what are you fuss over?

2008-06-21T23:14:00.001+08:00

I guess most humans (yes, this include me too) are funny- when there are things to be fuss about, they are sick and tired over it; on the other hand, when there are nothing to be fuss about, they ALSO get sick and tired over it.

This vacation seems to be a 'soul-less' one for me (if i did spelt it in the correct way).

Confusing life?

2008-06-07T23:47:00.002+08:00

Well, ever since summer vacation started, i have not seems to settle down yet. I guess busy seems to be a good smoke screen for my procastinating actions.

She seems to be a past history. I guess, it is time for me to pick up and walk into a new chapter again.

小情歌

2008-05-19T00:21:00.001+08:00

这是一首简单的小情歌
唱着人们心肠的曲折
我想我很快乐
当有你的温热
脚边的空气转了

这是一首简单的小情歌
唱着我们心头的白鸽
我想我很适合
当一个歌颂者
青春在风中飘着

你知道
就算大雨让这座城市颠倒
我会给你怀抱
受不了
看见你背影来到
写下我
度秒如年难捱的离骚
就算整个世界被寂寞绑票
我也不会奔跑
逃不了
最后谁也都苍老
写下我时间和琴声交错的城堡

最后谁也都苍老

悠闲悠闲，真的是有很多嫌事

2008-05-18T22:45:00.003+08:00

终于放假了，无忧的生活又再次到来。然而，总觉得自己的生活步伐丝毫没慢下来的迹象，反而有加快的现象。每天似乎在与时间赛跑，赶日程表，赶得给予学生的复习作业，等等等。想找个时候透口气也似乎有点困难。

If chinese typing can be done by just scribbling onto the computer screen, i would be over the moon.

Indeed, exams are over; stressful period of rushing assignments, meetig for projects, preparing for tests and quizzes, reading lecture notes are all over. Things, by right, should be coming to a pause at this moment in time, or at least, slowing down for this moment in time. But, it seems that the tempo of life has just started to pick and move even faster. Rushing for deadlines, time schedule, tutees' progress reports, tutee's further enhancement worksheet and etc, were all the daily routine activities. Laptop is a essential tool for me wherever i go.

Maybe i'm getting older, somethings are hard to be say out like that:)

选了这条路，就不要后悔！

2008-05-17T01:42:00.003+08:00

忙碌了整整四个多月，终于能稍微休息一下，喘口气。

Well, sometimes, i would wonder why typing in chinese can be so difficult. I guess the fault should be me and my typing skill.

Indeed, ever since i came back from China trip early this january, i have been slogging for months and months. Sometimes, i do wonder what the hell i'm slogging for. Sometimes, i would wonder is it worth slogging all along and sacrifice some parts of my life. Sometimes, i would wonder if i could turn the clock back in time and redo some regrets in my life.

我不需要你施舍。

If we would know that we would end up to what had happened a while ago, i guess, we might not even start our very first step. Ya?

随着思维的增长，我也变了？

2008-04-05T23:07:00.003+08:00

I have not blogged for quite some time, i have not been doing what i'm supposed to complete too. I have not been myself. And the reasons? I'm also unsure about it.

I have read from one book, that talks about human nature, and it says that as technologies improvement, civilisations prosper, humans might tend to get a little more greedy and un-contented. Un-contented as in they believed that they could achieve more than ever, they believe that they are more superior than someone else. And they believe that they are meant to acheive big things.

You might want to disagree with me. But let's see what i have got here.... Perhaps reading this, you might think that i have cooked up the story, but hey, go and think a little further, you might know what i'm talking about. This is something factual in life; and peharps, something that is quite disheartening (at least, to me).

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In a village of a certain country (being a physics student, i shall call it A), the village started to prosper since years ago. And till now, the people in this village are quite educated. Majority of the teenages have completed their high school, gotten grade 9 or even grade 11 certificates. And most of them have gone to the university to further pursue a degree. These were done in hope of a better future, a better village.

Many years down the road, the education have indeed made the village prosper. The economy of the village improved because of the good education system and plans by the various village heads and dedicated committee members.

However, because this village is one of the many other villages that are prospering well and full of wealth. Many other villages decided to send their people in to learn and work. This has further drove the economy to the peak.

But over the years, things seems to have changed. Many of the younger villagers, because they get to enjoy the fruits of their forefathers, have become complacent. Some of them think that education is for the sake of educating, going to school and attaining grade 9 or 11 were just because of their parents' command. Dropouts seems common.

To make the whole situations worst, many of these teenages believed that they were the one to achieve big dreams, believe that they were the one to do big things. And because of that, lowly-paid jobs like shop attendants and lowly-position clerks were discriminated by them. Bosses decided to use people from other villages to do the work.

Not understanding what's happening, these teenages still think that they were the ones to creat business. They went around influencing each other about not educating, because it does not guarantee a job. And what happen? It seems that more and more of these young villagers think that they are big-shots; they rule the world; they can be complacent; they despise education; discipline was an issue in small village schools; smoking became trend.

The general culture in this village was not well liked by the people from other villages. Tension and competition sets in.

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If you were in the village, what would you do?

"Sister Act II" was a show to teach me something great -> If you want to be somebody; If you want to go somewhere, you better wake up and pay attention. The world is very cruel, they are don't care who you kicked it with or who kicked you, as long as you don't have education, you are out of the game.

Want to challenge this statement? Let's see how long you could challenge this statement that lasted true and through for the 2 milleniums in history.

Don't believe me? Well, you've got the brains to think through. Handphones, computers and air cons and languages don't just drop from the sky!

I'm just but one of the commoners in the story. Haha, that's the irony!

Hmm, i guess i'm really in love in mentoring

2008-03-18T00:48:00.003+08:00

I don't like the word 'teaching'. I don't like people call me 'teacher'. I'm more than a teacher, or, i hope to be more than a teacher.

I want to be someone who do more than classroom teaching.
I want to be someone who will be always there for my students / tutees.
I want to be someone who always put their welfares in the first place.
I want to be someone who will helps to plays a part in shaping the future generation.

I don't want to be a teacher, i want to be more than a teahcer.

Teach, Share and Guide.

Seeing my kid tutees (i call them boy boy, as usual) now able to do more than A level physics questions, ie, write resumes and cover letters, know what to do to have a foothold in the society, and more, it's really heartwarming. If i could touch more lives, life will be almost perfect for me.

I love students, i love mentoring.
My students love me (perhaps?)

Suddenly, i feel a little older

2008-03-14T20:58:00.002+08:00

Watching my 2nd batch of ex-students graduating from their A levels, gotten quite a good results, entered into the Army to do their BMT training, POP last wednesday and etc, i felt that i'm aging out of the blue moon. Not just physically, i guess. It is more than the physical health, i guess mentally and spiritually.

Seeing my kid tutees graduating and becoming men of the future key pillars for the country; welcoming more and more kid tutees wondering how they are able to pass their exams with flying colours; witnessing friends getting married lately; having more and more personal time due to not able to meet up with friends and etc, time really flies.

I missed all the good old times where i can just sit and stone for the whole of today.
I missed some friends, who might have forgotten me.

I look forward to every tomorrow, for every tomorrow is a hope for me to do something.

Out a sudden, i wonder what i'm wondering about

2008-03-02T20:13:00.002+08:00

Funny, is it?

In a flashback

2008-02-28T22:10:00.003+08:00

(Bros and Friends, if you guys see this, don't get shocked.. it's just a sudden flashback!)

I was on the train this morning and i saw a lot of secondary and tetiary students rushing to schools for their lessons. Many things just happened to re-appear in my mind...

The first time i wore my white school uniform to school, promising myself that i will try to do well to get into a good high school.

The first time i stood in front of the whole school to do my solemn pledging to seve dutifully as a student leader and to uphold the image of the school without any fear or favour.

The first time i stood in front of the whole school to address the school, for the first time, as the president of the prefectorial board.

The first time i stood in front of the whole school to address the school, once again, as the chief of the student leader club.

The first time i stood in front of many, to compete for my 3rd placing in under-18 badminton tournment.

The first time i represented the school to compete in the Chinese Oratorical Duet competition.

The first time i represented the school to attend the Maths Olympaid, Junior Catergory.

The first time i stood in front of the whole school to give my valediction speech, as the president of the prefectorial board.

The first time i represented the school to attend the Physics Competititon in NUS.

The first time i represented the school to attend the Maths Olympaid in NUS.

The first time i represented the school to participate in the Youth Festival, as a member of Chinese Orchestra.

These were some of the past of when i was a student. (Der student)

I still remembered the times where we went Sentosa and wrote the words - We feel hot; the times where we went for steamboat and mahjong after that; the times where we went Geylang to have a dim sum supper; the time i entered into a bank to do as research personnel; the time where we went to chris's house for steamboat; the time where we broke Jackson's cups while playing Mahjong.

It's has been a long time since this blog was up. The primary purpose of me having a blog was to waste a bit of my block leave while serving the green.

In a flashback, many things have really happened. And i guess i'm really old..

One week -> 2 gatherings. More to come? Yes!

2008-02-26T23:13:00.003+08:00

I love this week, for i have managed to catch up with a few friends.

I met up with Joo on Sunday evening for a simple dinner at Upper Thomson Road - Shanghai Ren Jia. I missed some China cuisine, and this place had helped me to curb some heavy craving. If this place would sell Pian Er Chu, i guess i would have just ordered a bowl and enjoy. Anyway, this place has some good food to enjoy, and this tea? Is simply delicious and enjoying. Thanks, buddy. Got time we come out and play again?

Today managed to meet up with bro (chris) and caitian for a movie and lunch at PS. Gatherings have never failed to brighten up and keep my day smiley. Anyway, we watched KungFu Dunk and 'not too bad' was the comment i gave to this show. Quite exciting and hilarious.

After the movie, Chris and I went to Orchard to have dinner at Sakae Sushi. (This is the first time we cannot eat up to the expectation hor?)

Time for a rest as for now. Bro, hope you like the presents. Thanks for the day too:)

The start of the new year this year seems to have made my year a nice and fulfilling

2008-02-10T20:01:00.000+08:00

You may ask why the nick seems so nice and jovial..

I just received a phonecall from a long lost good friend of mine:)

I feel lik

2008-01-31T23:36:00.001+08:00

Haha.. if you happen to press the play buttoon in the list of music i have attached by the side..

You might be like me - feels like clubbing

It has been 9 years, so what's the differences?

2008-01-15T23:39:00.000+08:00

"I want to complete my Masters in Physics! I want to be a teacher who shape and mould the future generation! I want to be a teacher who helps a child to see what he is and how he can make himself a somebody one day! I want to be more than a teacher!" These were what i thought since i first touched physics textbook.

9 years gone, in just a blink. Now, sitiing in front of the laptop, i'm someone who is about to step into the working society and face the real world, the real working adult world - the world which seems to be spinning for the sake of money, fame and power.

"You got to find some work, so that you will not be hungry."
"You got to earn money!"
"Be a useful man, go and find a staple job!"

It just seems that when the age moves up the 'hill' and what's in lie for you are winkles, problems and more troubles.

I was flipping through the photo albums and was 'thrown' back to the times where maths was just simply 1 + 1 = 2, there wasn't differentiation, matrices and linear algebra to make me go nuts. Calculations of interest was so simply a one equation formula. Mary just has a little lamp and wasn't heavily involved in money exchange problems and chemical reactions. An ant was just a creature that look different from us and wasn't being brought to study. The thinking was so much more simpler and easy to be comprehended.

Friends were almost everywhere. Recess was a time to play 'catching', challenge 'zero-point' and competing 'hopscotch'. After school was a time to play around with good friends and watch
spiderman' or 'TMNT'. Weekends were meant for badminton and basketball with friends. Camps were a time for havoc and chaos.

Now, stars are more than heavenly bodies; sun was a ball of hydrogen atoms undergoing nuclear reaction; walking is an application of netwonian mechanics and biological digestion; so on.

Have i turned into a more knowledgable guy with a bit more intelligence or processing thoughts? Or have i become someone who is thinking too much and pondering overly? Or have i become someone who seems like a leech? What i have become?

I have lost high percentage of child-like thinking, i have lose faith in my things.

9 years, would i lose my direction and ultimate goal?
Have i?

The earth rotation mechanism has never changed since the big bang (maybe?). The process of aging seems to be intact and unperishable. But the inner desire and thoughts have seems to be evolving daily. Scary..

9 years later, where would i be? Would i be standing in front of a big bunches of young adults talking about physics and principles in life? Would i be still on the old spot? Would i be more matured and less emoti0nal?

Who knows?

Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow....

2007-12-03T23:24:00.000+08:00

It has been really a very long time since i came in and post some pictures and 'grumble' about my lastest update..
A tedious semester has concluded since 1st december (last saturday, 11am) after my last paper for this semester. What a hectic semester i had, been hiding myself within the books, having many sleepless nights, skipping many meals due to hectic flow of traffic.
Finally, after months of struggles, my own tuition centre has been up and forward-moving. Let's hope it is forver this way..
Below are some photos that i took (with my new camera) yesterday with my gang of physicists (wanna be). Haha..

My dream christmas house...

The gang of physicsts

Craps

2007-11-13T23:57:00.000+08:00

Feeling so crappy today..

A idiotic and unsightful day

Well, life just.... goes on, i think

2007-10-19T23:47:00.000+08:00

After talking to one of my friends recently, i suddenly feel that what i have done previously for someone seems to be redundant. I guess he is correct - a shattered glass is always broken. No matter how much i do to do the patching, there will always be this little crack appearing at the surface of the glass. It cannot be remove, and cannot be conceal. It will just appear to de-value the whole glass.

I guess this is happening to everyday lives. I think i have been trying to hold on to something that does not exist anymore.Something that i thought would be everlasting. Sometimes, i thought would be good enough to call a friendship. I must be foolish to hold on to it. Haha, i guess it is time to let this go and take up new committments.

Pinning and hoping does not work anymore. I miss the vacation break, i miss the mooncake festival, i miss the boat, i miss the entire timing. There are times where i really thought of pressing the dial button or even the 'send' button. There are times i really hope that when we bump into each other again, at least we would stop by to say hi. There are times where i really hope that things could have a turning point and things would have been better. But, what i see is a coward guy not being able to press the dial button, not being able to face the reality.

Just simply miss off. What can be done? Let go and forget it.

There are so many things to be said and done. But, it always get struck at the mouth.

Recently, tried out the new application - Facebook. Not bad, quite fun and interesting though.

Just...

2007-10-14T00:36:00.001+08:00

If you know what i am tied down with, it would be very nice...

Just so blank

2007-10-09T23:55:00.000+08:00

This year seems to be an odd and weird year. (Am i resigining to the fate that the rest of the year would be bad? Well, nope.)

It is indeed funny. Fancy bumping into you for 3 times today, yet i have to assume that we are just but strangers. (Do i know you?) So much for 2 years. So much for so many things. So much for these. From strangers to friends, from friends to buddies, from buddies to brothers, and from brothers back to strangers. This is indeed funny. Can those histories be just erased off, like chalk on the board?

Sometimes, i really hope that there is this person (existing on Earth) appearing at the crucial moment, listening to me and let me do anything that i would really wanted to. Let me vent out all the long-forgotten stress and strain. Let me.. Would such person appear?

Just feeling so... blank

Moving ahead..

2007-09-29T00:56:00.000+08:00

Mid term break has came to an end an hour ago (well, saturdays and sundays are excluded). 'Good things always come to an end' (sometimes, it makes me wonder how about those bad things. Ha!)

Well, did had good times this week..

Spent my first three days back in old workplace to have fun with my shifu, ah gong, gor gor and great ahgong.. Haha.. Life is seems simple and nice..

Thursday and friday are meant for mugging.
then again.. out to play more than i mug..

Ended

What i have been missing, and what i'm looking forward to

2007-09-26T23:52:00.000+08:00

This week is a vacation week for me.. and i'm back at OCBC again to work and explore more about the life as a banker..

Quite like the idea of playing with research testing and hypothesis setting of results and cry when the results are wrong..

Haha

Looking forward to December 7, a day where i would be on the plane, a day where i will be to a new place to play.. and of course a day that marks a happiness in my life.

When MSN nick tells you all, yet you cannot probe at all

2007-09-19T23:00:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, i wonder whether i'm in the correct frame of mind or not. Sometimes, i wonder if the person i'm hoping to understand what the heck i'm doing or so (let alone bothering about). Sometimes, i wonder if whether i'm stupidly enough to believe in miracles and hope these miracles would come true or not. Sometimes, i wonder if the world is moving at a rate where we can can forgo history. Sometimes, i wonder why i wonder so much.

Mid-Autumn festival is just around the corner, and i really really hope that this miracles of mine would really really happen. Dream Fulfiller missed my dream once in January, once in June and hopefully it will grant my dream this time round. But then again, there would be a third time. It is pain to be in the same lecture hall. So near yet so far. Two rows of seats could means a vast ocean separating the path.

Just why? Curiousity is in me, unleashing the truth is my motto, live the dream is an ultimate goal. So why?

Sometimes, i wonder why i spent so much time in books and little time with my 'Tigger' and bed. Sometimes, i wonder if my 'Tigger' was to speak, what would be its first sentence. Sometimes, i wonder for what i must race against the time. Sometimes, i wonder if i could reverse the clock where should i start over again.

Just some wonders. 7 Wonders of the World are also wonderful.

Will my wish and dream come true? I really hope 2 times of failure would be enough for me.

Am i stupid? Well, that's is my 9th wonder here.

Life, no matter what, has to move on.

But will dreams be left behind when we are forced to let it go? 10th, it will be the last wonder here.

Carry on then..

What's up lately?

2007-09-09T21:10:00.000+08:00

It has been nearly a month since i blog and blog away happily..

Many things have happened; many tears have shed off painfully lately.. And many sacrifices have been done just to make sure that things are ongoing smoothly..

Just had my first movie trip yesterday night since the start of the school term.. Rogue Assassin. I would say it is not bad to watch, action-packed, that is. Thanks, lao da and xiang.. At least i know i have a bit of social life around (you would know what i meant :) )

Had lost a friend to miscommunication, and i think this time is real for sure.. Friendship can be really so vunerable. Sighed.. (If he ever see this, i really hope from now on, he would lead a happy and carefree life. Hope that the remaining 4 months of this year would be a sweet and nice one for him to continue.)

Being a Year 2 student can be a challenge, for many nights i just feel like crying over the piles and piles of stuff i have to clear. I have to carry on again and again for weeks till december 1st.

WeiLian has just released his new album in taiwan recently, and well, i would say the cd is really not bad to invest one. He has really improved alot..

Social life.. What have i lost out recently?

Suddenly, i feel so trapped and so lost..

Sunday... It is only a mark to inform me that monday is coming soon.
I guess i have to return to my books and stay there again..

Stay tune:(

Steamboat Lunch last friday

2007-08-17T00:28:00.000+08:00

Well, i have been procastinating for the past few days. In fact, i have some reasons for that to happen.. School has just restarted and i seems not been able to adapt into the system; fancy receiving an email could make me fell into depression for so long; lazy. Ok, i do admit that the last reason weighs a higher percentage then the rest. Anyway, who cares.

Ok, was out with Chris and CT for the whole of last Friday (Aug 10) for a movie and steamboat. Well, we went to Hey Hey Hotpot (opened by MediaCorp Artiste - Terrence Cao).

Not bad.

Just feeling so indifferent

2007-08-15T10:48:00.000+08:00

We knew each other on Dec 13, 2004. That was the first time i greeted him 'Happy Birthday'. And that was his first Birthday greeting in a foregin training ground. And that marked the journey of friendship and brotherhood for us.

Dec 28, we were back in Singapore, we were posted to the same unit. Suffering the same fate of doing huge tons of admin and huge tons of rubbish. Birds of the same feathers flocked together. We became more and more closer, seems like real brothers.. Cried when things were not turning in our favour, laughed when things were turning out to what we want.

Here came our first outing: Shopping for new year clothing; the second one: Movies; the third one and so on. Outings were countless.

Dec 13, 2005, his day again. I decorated the bunk, and gave him a huge surprize for his birthday.

More shopping trips preceeds the next year, more outings.

Feb: A day i move out from the old unit, into a new one. We were sad for this to happen.

June: We went to take up a painting job and suffer all the shits together.

August14 : He came into the same university as me.

December 13, 2006: i gave him another surprize for his birthday: A chocolates of 21 flavours.

Nothing happening at 2007.

Aug 14: A parting email.

Can anyone tell me how to react? I really lost the power and confidence to handle yet another lost in battle?

A small fish in a vast and choppy ocean

2007-08-07T00:24:00.001+08:00

Haha, cute sentence right??

Haha, this sentence was posted by one of juniors (Damien) in his msn. Cute

A small fish in a vast and choppy ocean

2007-08-07T00:24:00.000+08:00

Haha, cute sentence right??

Haha, this sentence was posted by one of juniors (Damien) in his msn. Cute

Just a cross road..

2007-08-05T00:55:00.000+08:00

anyone, can tell me?

寻找回真正的我。。

2007-08-03T22:32:00.000+08:00

Sitting in front of the laptop, under the dark clear sky. My mind just happens to run through many many memories..

'Human should look forward, and not backward,' this is what i tend to hear these days. At times, feelings tend to get very mixed up, seems like when you do cooking and you accidentally knocked off all the seasonings - can't really differentiate if this is sweet, sour, bitter or salty.

So how i suddenly don't like the feeling of growing up, but on the other hand, growing up has many advantages too. (Anyway, i don't like the feeling at this instance.)

There are many distractions, distortion, opportunities lying around in the vast society. There are many to be done and to get done with as i aged and move on. There are many choices for me to choose and for me to move on. So as i move on, i would have many things to decide on and move on? Sometimes, i feel that i'm out of place. At other instances, i feel odd and lost.

Sometimes, moving on seems to be easier to spell out than to carry out. Many instances, when bumping and getting close to a 'once a good friend' is quite a pain. You know that you have known this person for so long that there were so many many memories (a 13 hours of effort, many outings and movies, bidding of 1st year sem 1 modules together, attending many lectures and tutorials together, crying hard for the problems we faced and etc). But at this moment, at this hour, and at this instance, we now become strangers. Strangers who would not even bother to take notice of the presence of each other. That's the turn-table of life.

When i was in the rock bottom and about to lost faith, belief in things, someone actually told me there:" As you grow old, the number of close friends around you get lesser and lesser." I was dumbfounded and struck. Trying my best to move on, and trying my best to forget what have took place. But then, forget seems to be another word that is easier to spell than execute. So what i could do? Moving on with the pain and hope that one day, this pain would be forgotten. But it seems that it got numbed instead of being forgotten. I was numb at that point of time. Just tried my best to stuff myself with work, and more work. No question asked.

I was out for dinner just now and someone asked me how this friend has been lately. My reply? "Er.. i don't know." He was shocked, how come 2 close buddies actually not know how the other party was lately. No answer to his shockness. But deep down my heart, i also wanted to know the answer too - how can such things happen? How the heck did it happen? "You guys should have make used of the vacation to meet up. 3 months of vacation wor."

Vacation. What have i done for this vacation, beside trying my best to setup a tuition consultancy union, pushing the ideas of all round success and taking up the challenge in banking sector? One thing i know i have done was to make myself to believe in studying hard, for the desired job i want to be in future has to has a good degree. Any other thing else? A quick smile would be the answer then.

Seeming like growing up is a weird process. I tend to understand what i think i understood yet it seems like there are still more than to meet the eye.

Where is the guy who actually stay true and loyal?

Nothing seems to be working my way..
Lost and just lost...

Where can i go from here and now? Who? How?

I guess it is time for Mr Clueless to stop and find a way out.

old le, getting naggy lately.. haha

2007-08-01T01:00:00.000+08:00

Anyone can curb such feeling??

一步一脚印，会有这一刻的到来吗？

2007-07-31T11:25:00.000+08:00

时间一点一滴的流失，日子一天一天的过，人一天一天的长大。

How you ever realised that age is inversely proportional to the number of close people (families and friends) around you? (Well, someone highlighted that to me last night.) After some serious thought about that, i think that is quite true.

Sighed...

我会慢慢长大。。

听着寂寞在心里呐喊

2007-07-30T23:25:00.000+08:00

已经是凌晨时分，我始终还是无法抵挡寂寞所带来的歌曲。
空虚，愤恼，悲伤几乎离不开寂寞。。

世问有谁会与我肝胆相照？
有谁会与我坦承相对？

难道人与人之间的关系是微薄的？

看见电视上的连续剧的兄弟，好友的唇亡齿寒的关系令人羡慕。我会有这样的友情吗？

快开学了，终于能逃避成人的忧愁进入年少无知的学生生涯，能把自己埋进压力十分大的学业。。

人际关系，好难捉摸。。。

Nothing, just drop by to blog blog lo

2007-07-28T22:49:00.000+08:00

Hmmm..

A question for the day: How much do you understand about things around you?

Well, i got nothing to do just and was reading all the 300overs posts that i have written since Nov 2004. Oh well, it was dated quite long back, and many things have taken place since then..

People came and go, well really came and just go.
Life.. getting a little hard to be interpreted..

Who would be there always?

Dim sum, anybody?

2007-07-28T20:22:00.000+08:00

So what i have been doing lately while my xiao di was away?

I went in search for the best dim sum in the town.

No matter what, i still think that Selegie Dim Sum is still the best..
They got 4 branches, i went to the one at Jalan Kayu..
Hahaz..

3 more days, till then, i will keep my fingers crossed.

I dun like this place.
Sad place to be in..

A near-miss, lucky for me.

2007-07-26T20:44:00.000+08:00

Befriended doctors, X rays, pains and MRI for the past few days.. You might wonder why (well, just know that i'm badly injured.. now near to recovery..)

Anyway, was quite happy that the outcome was quite good..

HAhaz.. now feeling better le..
Thanks, ppl for the care and concern. NOw that we know who is really there...
Who is not there..

5 more days.. till then, i will keep my finger cross!!

Feeling lighter

2007-07-23T23:25:00.000+08:00

After delivering what i have promised, i actually felt lighter (not the literal meaning, people).

Just another 8 more days..

Till then, i will keep my fingers cross...

Just had a chat

2007-07-21T01:42:00.000+08:00

It's rather funny that to know that after you enter into the working industry, there are pros and cons in it, and it seems that cons would be a little more than pros, ya? You get to earn your own bucks and live the life you want to be - have car, getting married, have children, buy house, go for holidays... - living independently and 'rich'. But, on the other hand, you would miss out the fun you have with bands of brothers, stoning away, chilling out at sentosa and many more. Losing contacts with close ones might be another problem. So how? Schooling is stress, yet you have time for what you want, maybe poorer.

Sounds like this is an inevitable path that many people would end up. Claiming the passion and love for the profession is one thing, devoted and wholeheartedly loving everyday in the vocation is another issue. So what's your pick? I have 2 to 3 more years to decide what i have to do...

Sometimes, when you received messages/ greetings from close group of brothers and friends would just brighten your day in any way. Pains and aches would just disappear, and the day somehow would just brighten up, smile would reappear on the face. Funny... Just received a message from my dearest xiao di, he's is fine and happyily enjoying himself for his vacation trip.. Hahaz.. good for him...

But then, if you have a close friend (closet) would choose to ignore and walk away from you, what would you do? Emails and short message services seems to have no power to maintain the contacts, in short, you would just lose the contact. What would you do?

I was talking to Vincent gor gor last night, and somehow someone we knew (let's call him A) appeared in our conversation. Vincent gor gor was stunned to hear that i lost contact with A, given that we were quite close back in the green service and in our first sem in uni. (Don't ask me how and why, it just happened and i also dun want such thing to be. And i also want to know what the hell is going on). It drew my attention to many many people that i have bumped into for the past few years in life (few years, i'm still young, ok?)

How many people, whom you knew, would actually be with you when you are down? Ironically, how many people would be with you when you are rich and famous, and have the qualities to help anyone? How many 'bros' and 'closet' you made would actually appeared when you need their support the most?

That's human relationship, i guess. Making you feeling lost at times. Hmmm...

Is it meant to be this way? When you are 'useless' to a friend (in terms of helping him in any way), he would just dump you away, and pretend not to know you when you two bump into each other in the street? So much for my belief..

Sighed...

How many bros, whom you have made in your lifetime, would actually walk the whole journey with you? Can anyone enlighten me?

Simply sad, and feeling useless..

Is there something call forever?

Age cannot be forever the same; you would get older and older..

Health cannot be forever the same; you would get weaker at times..

Intelligence cannot be forever; it will improve when you see more..

How about friendship?

Haiz... I guess i got to pick up and run.. Lose confidence ans security once again..

Just so happy

2007-07-20T18:48:00.000+08:00

Hahaz....
Just so happy because just managed to receive the sms from xiao di..

Hahaz... He reached there safely..

Haiz..

2007-07-20T01:20:00.000+08:00

It's now 1.19am and yet i cannot still..

Besides the fact that i have a supper just now, i have to highlight that i was at the airport just an hour ago...

By now, xiao di should be on the plane, eagerly heading back to visit his families and friends.. He will be back 12 days later to be a formal undergraduate (hahaz..)

Keeping fingers cross...

An orange that think that it is a papaya

2007-07-19T19:26:00.000+08:00

There's an advertisment talking about an orange trying to be like a kiwi by wearing some skin.

I thought it was just an advetisement until i saw this a while ago...

Can you spot the difference?

Yes, the left one is the authetic colour of orange, and the right hand side is a colour of a papaya (but on an orange).

Now, what do you think?

Haiz.. another 3hours later, i have to send someone overseas.... I hate this feeling..

Can anyone teach me how to curb such a bad feeling?

I'm actually getting a little sleepless

2007-07-19T00:07:00.000+08:00

I also don't know why..
Whenever someone, who is very close to me, tells me that he/she is going overseas for vacation or studies or work, i will just get simply unable to sleep the day before the person gets overseas...

Funny, ya?

Aeroplanes are safe, i know.
Should not spoilt their mood, i know.
And that's why i try not to show that i'm worried when i sent them off..

But just cannot help but to feel it this way, i guess.
Sighed.. Irony? I guess so. I feel happy for them for they are able to go out and see the world or to study...

I guess you should now know that i'm sleepless now..
Hahaz..

Another gathering

2007-07-18T22:55:00.000+08:00

Been going out and will be hanging out for a few gatherings this week....

Had sentosa trip on monday, late night run on the same night

Gym on tuesday and movie on the same night

Badminton game today

Oh, well, how i wish time would just stop there and let me enjoy myself in all the gatherings..

Again, here are the pictures of the food i ate yesterday...

This is some appealing tarts, but then, too many onions.

Not for me...

An egg tart.

But, i still prefer homemade/ handmade egg tart

This is Peach Tower, shared with Gor gor after our movie lo..

But then, disappointing. Differ from what i expected.

There are still a few more people i'm missing out..

Haiz.. Hope i can meet them soon.. Ppl like Lao Da la, Joshua gor gor and more...

Sentosa Trip Part II

2007-07-17T00:26:00.000+08:00

The weather was nice today (lucky for me, chris and ct).
So, we, continued our legendary since June 07, went out to Sentosa today! (Hooray!)

I woke up early this morning to prepare the snacks andsandwiches for the 2 of them (let's hope it was not too bad).

So below are some of the 65photos that i took today.. Enjoy!

This photo was taken out Images of Singapore.
Showing the export and import sector of Singapore main island.
Our main economic pillar!

Me and my bro, chris..
Sitting by the Coffee Bean, enjoyung my chocolate and his Latte Tropical Fruit Passion on the hot sunny day

This photo was taken when i was at the top of the skyRide.
Quite cooling and fun to be up there, though i was quite stunned when i first went up.

A rough gauge of how high i was

Rough gauge 2!

This is a shoe house. This photo was taken at the Imbiah Garden. This shoe reminds me of the story of a woman and her 7 children living in a shoe house. A fairytale.

Images of Singapore.

Inside one of the shops in Images of Singapore.
They showed a sample of a local food - satay.

There was a little rain, but it stopped after 25mins. See the rainbow there.. Haha

Walking along the Merlion Walk..
The musical bell.

The Merlion

The Merlion Walk

From 12pm to 7pm, we were at Sentosa.
Had alot of fun, and laughters. And when it was about time to return to Main Island, we ended up in Vivocity to have our dinner, and this is what we had.

Taken in Sushi Tei..

Thanks bro and CT, i had really really enjoyed myself..
But now that i'm burnt!!

Haha...
Let's look forward to Aug 6, our steamboat dinner!!

yet another gathering

2007-07-14T00:22:00.000+08:00

Managed to went out with Allan, gor gor, beng (+ his gf), Damien, Jo and Chris for a dinner at Sunshine Plaza and a desert at Short St.

(Didn't manage to take any photo)

But, what i can say?
The wanton mee at Sunshine Plaza is quite nice.. The soup base is thick.
But as for the beancurd and you tiao.. I guess Geylang's side still the best...

Hahaz...

It's late night

2007-07-12T00:03:00.000+08:00

Could anyone out there suggest what my next step should be?
I' ve tried my best to revive this friendship, but it seems not moving at all..
After so much, it is not thriving back. I think i will have to put to a stop...

Well, was talking to gor gor just now. I'm hungry now, how?

Anyone got any place to recommend? Cheap delicacies?
I'm still looking for good chicken rice stall...

There are so many things happening around, and that only makes us (Revolver) to know that we are getting older and older

2007-07-10T21:25:00.000+08:00

I guess i have not come in for a real update for very long time. Apart from the fact that i have been appearing at others' blog to chat.

Time flies, and without much delay, it's mid-july soon. There are so many things that happened lately, and there are so many new people that i have met. Things and mindset start to change; attitudes towards many things start to take up a new shape; conversation with people are getting more and more formal, superficial.

Is this the trend that i would see?

This vacation break rock the most, i guess i'm gonna to miss the place i have been, and of course, the gang of brothers i have met..

Qn: How can 2 people, who were used to be best friends, become strangers in just a quarter of an Earth spin? Anyone can answer this good query?

My student sent me this song, and i think this song is really very nice..

傻傻两个人
许过一个愿
当时星星眨着眼
看起来并不远

为你长翅飞
为你被风吹
请你千万要等我
带幸福来给你的那一天

春天散步夏天看海秋天数落叶
(我们)一直没有烦恼一直没有争吵
让每天像糖一样甜

冬天飘雪我是棉被温暖你的夜
一直在你身边一直爱到永远
你就负责靠着我的肩

贴着你的脸
拍一张照片
世界是很复杂的
要靠我近一点

但愿你每天
幸福又安全
两只恋人手牵手
谁也不用再跑给谁去追

see this

2007-07-01T23:15:00.000+08:00

Observe the legs there??
Dangerous right??

Don't do this even you are free

Food..

2007-06-23T23:18:00.000+08:00

Managed to chill out with Hock Joo last sat at Botak Jones (AMK branch).

The food there?
Very nice, the service and western culture set by the stall is really really very professional..

Serving size?
Very big.. I cannot finish..

Cost?
Quite ok, around the cost of a big mac meal.

See photos below lo..

Professional set of sauces and creams.

Fish and Chips Set (before i eat)

After i am so full..

Nice..

Sentosa trip

2007-06-10T01:08:00.001+08:00

Went to sentosa this afternoon with CT and Chris. I would say i never regretted going out with them today. It's really fun and nice. Thanks bro, and CT.
Hehe...
Below are some photos to show why:

At palawan beach

We felt very hot, so chris decided to squibble something on the beach...

At the Dolphin Lagoon

At Underwater World

One of the many crabs
Arh... sharks

Before we left the beach station.

Thanks guys, for wondering day.
Hope to see you guys for our Sentosa Trip Part 2 in July.

Wanna to see more photos, date me out lo

hhaha

Enriching and Empowering your life!

2007-06-02T21:08:00.000+08:00

Wow, nice title. But soon this post will be moved to somewhere it should belong..

Dear reader(s),

It's the starting of June. It's the starting of your new calendar month, and how are you going to live it? Live it in a routine way and make sure that you are there in the society surviving hard?

So what is life to you, and what makes you happy and tick?

Would it be something like this?

Working hard to know that you have the luxury of friends and family supporting you, and knowing that you would attain 2C's in your life - confidence and charisma. As you move ahead with life, you would have an enriching life and empowered yourself with all different aspects of life. Plus more, being able to build up your portfolio with your friends, who you want to be with and moving along to fruitful and meaningful life. At the end of the day when you look back you would say:" Hey, my life is such a way that i have never think of. How i wish i have such life earlier!"

If you have this dream and have this aim to bring yourself to enriching and fun journey, then what do you plan to do? What can you do? Alone?

Yup.. So want to know i'm brewing? Haha, date me out lo. Then you would know how a guy with new image and new style in life have been doing, plus, understanding where this guy is heading?

Wow, that's sound very commericialized. That sounds too good to be true.. Hmmm.. well, seeing and feeling is believing.. So you seeing or avoiding?

New image, new direction, new me!! A new you for you?
Hahaahzzz...

Just do it, and happyily face it..

2007-06-02T08:52:00.000+08:00

Before i start.. Let you guess which MRT station is it?
Wanna some clue.. see what's the words reflecting on the glass

Yeah, this is the environment that i'm working now. I'm a white-collar professional.

Seen these delicacies before? Able to name where these places are?
(Jackson could do it easily)

This tea is gonna to cost S$0.90 soon...

More updates coming on the way...

Changing new image - Phase I

2007-05-31T21:37:00.000+08:00

This is a good public holiday today...

Well, took this day to change my image...
Haha, so wanna to know what i have changed to myself?
Come and see me lo...

I guess life, somehow or ather, is short and forever fast-moving. I guess some people just take people for granted and take relationship just like a piece of tissue paper - after using just throw away. And, i think i have met one and stupidly think that this is not true till now..

I guess the null reply given to me has already show me what i should do. Out i will go, and forever i will not come.

New image... HAha... wanna to know? Date me out lo

Somehow it is good to be busy than slacking one corner doing nothing at all

2007-05-09T22:22:00.000+08:00

Well, did really had great days since May, though stress and busy..

HAha, nice..

How's the holiday?

2007-05-07T21:50:00.000+08:00

I quite like my holiday this time round. It gave me chances to see and feel what it is like to work in the White-Collar Industry.

Haha..

Will be back in soon..

想了又想..

2007-04-30T23:13:00.001+08:00

Have you thought of what your future would be?

Have you wonder why you have to walk on the earth for so many years of life?

Have you wonder what would you be able to acheive at the end of your journey?

Have you dream of the sweetest moment of life, that you would yearn to have?

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After so many years of teaching, i suddenly feel that the level of understanding in most of my students are not what i would have expected, based on their textbooks and syllabus. Fractions seems to be a problem for them, explaining using the concepts that have learnt seems to be a difficulty. Higher order thinking application questions are always left blank. Students are getting a little more rebellious - tucking out uniform, scolding vulgarity, not doing homeworks, cursing the teachers when lessons are boring, failed the tests yet nothing was done to atone the mistakes, tattoing and piercing. What is actually happening?

Being a committed educator, i, at times, felt a little upset and low for these few disturbing observations. What could really be done to salvage these situations?

Is being rebellious an 'in' thing for all youngsters to follow?

Sometimes, i wonder if these could get better...

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Anyway, vacations are here and things are getting better as for now, perhaps for these 3 months. Now that holidays are here, it is really a chance for me to experience some real-life situation.

There are alot of things that are going 'hay-wired', and somehow it seems that nothing could be done to improve or mould the situation.

I'm trying to do something about it, yet lazy to explain what would happen next... So people who have trust in me, please don't not probe further. If you trust me, please continue to give me the trust.

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1st may, my last chance to sit and enjoy prata.. Haiz...

Chorus of the dreams

2007-04-28T10:54:00.000+08:00

What is your dreams?

Is your dreams like this?

(1) Attending a birthday dinner on a weekend?

(this was the meals we have had two saturday ago, when Andy decided to bring forward his birthday celebration due to the up-coming of exams then.. Thanks for the meal, Andy!)

(2) Clubbing on a weekend night with a group of brothers and friends?

(Jackson, Me, Sumi and Sing went to Zouk 2 saturdays ago, after Andy's birthday dinner. Haiz, a sad experience - this clubbing proved that i'm old indeed. I'm out of clubbers' life, into pubbing, i guess)

(3) Attending a concert, to reward your hardwork for the exams?

(Attended a charity concert last night, saw 迷路兵 and 陈伟联)

So this what i have done for the weeks during and after the exams...

What is your dream?

Now that the vacation break is coming, and i'm now heading into the white-collar sector...

Vacation? What would you guys be doing?

Just so busy and tired lately.. As the days are near... you realised that the people are stack up with a lot of stress

2007-04-18T21:12:00.000+08:00

I guess, not only just me (i hope), i really hate this 'empty' period of time.

I guess most of us are feeling this way too - time suddenly is on my side and yet, it cannot be spend onto things like shopping or slacking...

Sighed... I hate such period of time...

The so-called 'judgement' day is near...
Stress level is stretched to its limit...

Life....

A new song to talk about today

2007-04-13T00:17:00.000+08:00

I chance upon this song a few days ago (我相信), which i think it's very nice to listen.
Enjoy..

Miracles is to be believed..
I believe i'm who i am
I believe freedom
I believe in hope
I believe i can touch the sky...

So what's happening today?

2007-04-09T19:42:00.000+08:00

Hmmm.. Let's see what i have got today.

Lunch talk? (Nope, did not have lunch today.)
Friends talk? (Nope, did not meet anyone today except for some studies matter)
Photographs? (Nope, never take any photos today)

So what's up today?

I guess exams is just around the corner, thus everyone seems very busy with the preparation.
Sighed... sort of dread such period of time.. Stress will built up, tension will increase and things might just go hay-wire any moment in time.

Have you ever wonder why you are here?
Have you ever wonder why you would need friends?
Well, interesting questions, i guess.

3 months of vacation break is coming soon, let's see.

Have you ever thought of this interesting question(s)?

2007-04-09T00:44:00.000+08:00

Today was quite a rare occasion for me. I would rarely be able to slack for a sunday, at certain region of the country; doing nothing but to appreciate the surrounding. And it so happened for me to think of the 'pressing issues' of many aspect of the life.

But wait, how would you define life?

Have what you thought life would be, while you read Cinderella, Snow White, Winne the Pooh, and many many fairy-tales related stories during your childhood, differs what you have or might experience now?

Does living simply equates to meeting your 3 basic needs and await to be called home by the Lord?

Or does it means that you have goal(s) and be able to fulfil them?

Or what does it mean to you? (feel free to share on my blog. I mean this question is really interesting and i would really like to know how people think of this. I thanked you in advance)

I saw a young child (about 4years old, perhaps?), he was grining from ear-to-ear. Why? He was given his favourite cookies. If you saw it, you might end up like me - smiling too. Suddenly, he has helped me to reconfigure the meaning of life. It seems that i have the wrong answer ever since i stepped into the 3rd stage of life.

Simply magical.

Vacation breaks is near the corner. And i really have a wish - to visit an orphanage. Sounds weird? I don't know. I suddenly felt that i should drop by there to take a look and feel for the kids there, even to shower them with some concerns. I thought of visiting the 3rd world country soon and feel for them and to share with them what i know and could do. I thought of being a welfare worker to share my vision, feel for people and listen to people's talking.

And that is how i see life now, i guess. Feel for people and share around.

Monday morning and soon...

Although it is just a meet up, it is still so SWEET and nice.

2007-04-07T23:39:00.000+08:00

I met my xiao di just now, and went for a Easter party. It was really very packed; filled with more than 8000 people in a convention hall.

Here are some of the photos that i managed to take while wandering around to look for my xiao di in the crowd...

This area is the carvinal area; filled with foods, fun and vendors. But then, the food is not that exciting and nice...
Coupons are needed..

So this is the photo that i managed to take while queuing up together with xiao di at my side.

Crowded? But fun, because xiao di was jumping around happily beside me. He ar? Was so energetic throughout the event.

Back to the carnival hall.
And took this photo while wandering around to wait for xiao di to head home together.

Felt so sweet to meet friends today. Make life so meaningful and appreciative.

Now, i'm so happy and elated for the meet-up today.
But then, yet to take dinner just now. Xiao di was too high and kept on running around throughout the whole gathering.. He did not take proper dinner..

Life is so SWEET!!

After a long day (meeting a friend, losing a gamble), life is still so sweet when you find somewhere you belong.

2007-04-06T00:36:00.000+08:00

I would say that this week was a good week. Why, you might ask? This week is a short week, because of good friday.

Hence, after a hectic and stressful week, it was time for me to slack one corner.
Hmm, so what did i do today? Let's see...

What do you think if i tell you that we had chicken rice where
(1) the chickens are 100% kampong chickens, and
(2) the resturant's name stated that it is a five star chicken rice stall?

The asnwer - disappointing! The chicken rice was not up to our expectation.

This is the chicken rice set, cost S$3. But then, it wasn't up to my expectation. HJ said that is is edible => not bad! What do you think then?

This is you cai. Well, does this look like it cost S$5?

What about the taste?

Tried boiled vegetables soaked in oil before?

This is one of the better dish! The marinated pork meats. It cost S$5.

So this is a cup of Homemade Barley. Well, this drink taste ok.

So after our 'wonderful' dinner, we went ahead to Coffee Beans to slack and chit-chat.

Does this place look familiar to you?
Somehow, this place looks like an isolated island to me..

This picture is taken outside the Coffee Bean.
Look like an ideal place to slack and rest on.

Taken at the other angle.

This was what i had while slacking in Coffee Bean.
Very nice!!
Pure Chocolate with whipped cream.

Well, with that, it marked my end of thursday night..

Looking forward to this saturday's gathering with Xiao Di!

I have lost a bet today, but then, i did not feel sad or pity at all. You might wonder why? Well, this is because i have predicted the answers, and i knew that the outcome of the gamble would be what i have predicted. What i lost is nothing serious; just a reason to believe in miracles would happen. To be exact, a reason to hope that the chocolate power would do some magic for me.. But then, it seemed that the 21 chocolates HAD lost its power.

Then again...

It's April

2007-04-01T19:00:00.000+08:00

Well, the week has just ended. It's nothing special except that i know i would be going for the concert (by 陈伟联) and i have just bought the ticket.

I bumped into someone (by right, i should say that it's a close friend. But then, who knows why? I guess it is fated that way, perhaps) a few days ago.

So i went out with ah hui last friday to Vivocity to buy present for a friend (21st birthday. Sighed.. I'm getting older). On the way, we stopped by Harbour Front Food Centre to have our dinner (did i say after a 4km run in school?). I had roti prata while ah hui had roti john. We ordered SOME indian rojak, which cost S$4.50 (ouch!!).

Friday night @ Harbour Front Food Centre
(well, maybe it's friday night... Not many people)

Roti Prata (Not that nice, i missed the one near my neighbourhood)

Roti John (ah hui had it)

Nice or not? It's up to you to guess..

This is the S$4.50 rojak. You tell how you think..

So yesterday i went out with Sebas to go pray at some temple at doing some prayers..

And of course, it's food time.

We went Macpherson food market to have a breakfast... Very nice, that is the comment i would say.

This is Mango Ice Milk.
Very nice!!! Worth a try!

Well, last picture to go... Find this place familiar..
I would end up there soon...

I came across this book and this text..

2007-03-30T23:21:00.000+08:00

The youth and the transiting people tends to lose their direction in life this is due to the environment that they have to adapt to. In normal situation, a person, who facing or about to face a new environment, will try to search for a new identity. This new identity is to help them to survive in this new change. But, the cruel truth is, at times, this new identity might be too ideal (in the perspective of the youth facing this situation), that is, they would still not be able to fit into the new change. When that happens, the youth, once again, will lose this identity and direction. Once this occur, the youth will feel confused, but, they would not consult anyone for anything (this is because youths tend to have very high ego).

If that really happens, what can the adults do?

Actually, nothing (that is sad, man). But then, we can act as a guardian angel, we can only stay behind them and look at what they are doing. Don't interfere, let them grow. Let them fly, once they are down then they will know what they can and what they cannot.

Sounds like what we (i'm not exception either) would have and bound to face at certain stages in life.

What about friends? It seems that at times, it seems so inevitable, we would lose some friends (be it they left your train or otherwise). It would be a pain and it would definitely impact us heavily in some way (positively or negatively).

I had an incident that really impacted me very negatively the whole of last night. It was so bad that i really refused to work or even talk. After that incident, it seems that i might have failed as a friend, or might failed in some other ways.

I met a friend (by right, it should be very very closed friend) at Clementi Bus Stop yesterday afternoon (should be about 2:30pm). A person was wearing pale yellow polo tee-shirt, coffee brown bermudas and a familiar black sling bag (why is it so familiar? Because i went with this friend to buy this bag months ago). That was not the first time i bumped into this person (In this case, we let this person be AA), to be precise, that was the 11th time i bumped into him (face-to-face, side-by-side) since the start of this year.

So what is the big deal about this issue?

Have you met a very very very closed friend (basically a closet) face-to-face on the street 11 times and he/she pretended not seeing you (as if he does not know you at all). For all the 11 times. Well, what would you conclude (as a normal human with some dignity and pride)? Well, that would be a conclusion for me at those instances, when i bumped into AA for all the 11times.

How come someone (who was so closed and who you are quite closed that) do this? What happened to the 2years of friendship (countless nightouts, numerous incidents and memory-filling activities)? Just why?

Many possible reasons could be given. Well, before throwing in some reasons in, try this..

Apple, Orange, Pear, University, Grape, Cheery.

So which word is caught your first instinct?

Well, what about a guy wearing bright yellow tee-shirt or bright orange tee-shirt, with copper-brown tinted hair in a crowd of dull-coloured crowd? Would he be quite obvious in this case?

Now, you know what i mean?

Perhaps, the problem might still lies on my side. Did i do anything seriously wrong? (If you know me, what would be your conclusion?)

So where is the fault line?

So now, you get how painful i was the whole of yesterday?

So what happened next? I gave up thinking and wondering. I guess the following theory would be a good one for me to use now...

By choosing, you have already decided what would be the dire consequences. When other options were being closed off by you, you have no reasons to regret, and you cannot afford to regret anymore. In this case, since an option was pathed out (be it both or one party doing it), i guess this is the one and only choice that i could choose (I have no other choice already, don't I?).

Blame me not then.

Sound scary, right? Well, i have hold on and struggled for months over this part of my journey. Since the final stunt (Chocolates surprizes) does not do any miracles anymore, i guess i have to fulfil what i have decided when i chose to use my last stunt.

I guess these time could be utilize better over to other friends, buddies and brothers. Let happy times continue to flow and let happy moments be with them wherever they go.

I guess i'm finding my new identity now.

Soon, i would be able to meet up with my xiaodi again. But then, now i have to start thinking of what i have to prepare for his 19th birthday. Suggestions?

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Finally, after much determination, i have went for my 8laps at the track today. Today, after the lessons at school, met up with HJ to do some slow jogging in school, and managed to do it. After which, we went to Vivocity to do some gift hunting. It really feel nice to take a breather out of a week of hectic schedule...

Will upload photos soon. Stay tune!!

Up next:

>> S$4.50 Indian Rojak (only 3 pieces)

It is raining. Is it externally or internally.

2007-03-29T11:32:00.000+08:00

It has been raining lately. But, the after-math of rain is very bad - the surrounding gets a little stuffy and humid, the air gets a little still. Then again, when it was raining, the surrounding temperature gets a little nice and cosy, cooling and (poof!) there i go, on the bed (with the piles of works to be done chunked aside).

But rain does some benefits too.
It slows down our working tempo and, at the same time, allow us to take a look and enjoy our surrounding.

While trying to appreciate and capture sweet memories, some things are just there to inject negative impacts on my life.

I guess i might have failed as a friend, after this incident. I guess i might really failed as a human. Violating my mottos and my guidelines to life. What else is there for me?

你失恋陪你哭个痛快，你跌倒借你勇气站起来。。

2007-03-27T23:56:00.000+08:00

You might be wondering why i used chinese text as my title for this particular post..

I have been thinking for many days.. And i think this would be a nice heading for my new post..
So my blog has a title of Metaorphosing; Capturing the sweetness in life..

Well, how many of us are actually capturing the sweet time we would have or we had have with our close ones (friends, pertaining in this issue).

Or should i phrase it the other way - how many of us took friends (who are always there) for granted and ignore them when we are low?

So what are friends actually?
Haha, maybe you can try to listen to 朋友一直都在 sung by 陈伟联. 　Very nice..

Haiz, still waiting for him to cut out new album.

Food, fun and life... What's that calling me?? Saturday fun...

2007-03-25T02:37:00.000+08:00

Here i am to give my blog some updates..
Life is stillso hectic and busy as usual, i guess i should get used to it by now.. But then? Sighed..

Hey this is a weekend. (so?) It's for fun and joys..
Hmm, so what did you do for the saturday that has just passed?
(Xiao di told me his activities of the day, that's very nice)

Me??
Oh.. I had a fun day today...

So what did i do today??

Well, as per normal, i did some revision (hey, it is really SOME).
After which, i headed out for a movie (or should i say it's wasn't an exciting movie).

Finally, i waited for a car to come and drive me to FOOD!!

Yeah..

Sumi, Jackson, Kevin, Terry and I went out for some guys' night (Hey you, no drinking! NO Pub and stuff like that).

We went to have a food fiesta at Geylang side.. Below are some of the food achievement that we had..

This is a cup of very sour juice!!!
It contain a sour plum

Their expression tells all!

Food!!!
We have Siew Mai, Xia Jiao, Kong Ba Pau, Chau Siew Pau, Chee Chong Fan. Hey, that is part 1 only..

This is my close brother - Jackson..
And our finished containers!!

Food!!
This is chicken claws

You just can't resist it!!
Their specialty!

Paper Chicken. Quite nice!

This one is not that nice, but then, still very tasty.

This is the sour curry crab! Oh my god!

So we got five people and it cost on about S$50..

You should try the food, it is simply delicious and delightful, fresh and tasty!

A question in passing..

2007-03-22T21:43:00.000+08:00

Define life. Give the meaning of relationship. Is there true education?

I was talking a group of youths a few nights ago.While talking to them, i realised that the statement seems true.

Are we ready? Gracious enough? Determine enough?
(Litters are everywhere, juvenile delinquents seems to be on the side of increasing. Seats are not offered to needy while on the train, skeptism are everywhere. Youths are showing 'concern to each other's mother.) What is happening?
(Students, locals, are not doing their best in education, still thinking that the world belongs to them.) What the hell is happening?

If not, what are we doing actually?

Define life? Most likely i believe the answer would be ________________.

Flu, cough and fever are just mild indicators to warn you that you should pay attention to your bod..

2007-03-18T20:30:00.000+08:00

I have been sick since friday evening. Till now, my fever seems not be able to be under controlled. I guess i have really aged tremedously within months. I'm not the young and energetic lad who can burn 2 days of midnight oil, rush reports and having irregularly mealtime. I'm old, and i guess i have to admit this inevitable facts..

Sometimes, when i'm down with flu and fever, i have the tendency to do some flash-back.Took a look at my photo albums and handphone pictures. I'm not sure if you would feel this way.. but everytime i bump into a friend (used to be very very close) in school, he would just walk past me yet pretend that he did not see me at all. I'm quite sad for this fo quite some time. Sighed.. How did things turn out this way? Is it for real?

Life is so funny. At times, i will complain the why not? Then to appreciate the why yes?

But?

I had read this message from somewhere - Friends are not obliged to be with you forever, they have their own life and freedom to choose things to happen. If they are around appreciate them, if not, thank them for being around for sometime - this sounds true.

So is it the time for me to thank him for being there for that certain period and let go? 5 times in a row, he walked past and pretend not to see me.

Life... Can anyone give me an answer?

Red Sky in the morning

2007-03-16T13:12:00.000+08:00

I was rushing to school early this morning and happened to come across this sight. So? I took out this my handphone and took done this 'rare' scene.

Red Sky in the morning. This reminds me of a book - Red Sky in the Morning. This was the first book that i touched in my secondary school life.This book is one of the few books that really 'sucked' me into the plot (the best book still goes to Nicholas Sparks, A walk to remember).

I'm still trying to recover from the sad feelings that i had over the last weekends. This is the place i think i will hate for months, as for now.

Sighed...

Does bloggers becoming more and more influential than journalists?

2007-03-14T20:31:00.000+08:00

I was watching the Arena yesterday, and re-watched just now on the train back to home. The debate was between 2 secondary schools and they were debating about above-mentioned interesting issue.

Both parties came up with a lot of viewpoints, which were both backed up by very good statistics and examples, quite well-linked. The examples were well-collected, in the sense, the examples came from various level of the society.

So who is the winner? Well, do you expect from a team in a debate?

Oh well, sometime it is a little good and exciting to watch a debate or be in a debate. Why? You get to see both sides of the coin and do some critical thinking about the things discussed.

Last round of semifinals is taking next tuesday? And what is their motion?

The next movie

2007-03-10T22:35:00.000+08:00

It's a show that you got to watch. I'm watching so why not you?

The time now is 10.35pm SG. I guess my dear friend has landed in Aus safe and sound. He should be on his way to his home right now. My heart still feel sad for sending off this friend back to Aus for good. But i guess he should be very happy for returning back to a place he is familiar with, a place that he grew up with.

TT, hope you have a good time there. Must write to me, old uncle, often.

Do you have a dream?
Do you have a dream to pursue since young?
Is it a good dream?
Is it a dying dream?
Dreamt of it again now?
Protect it and pursue it.

Freedom writers. A die die must see show.

Just feeling very sad

2007-03-09T23:40:00.000+08:00

I was at Orchard meeting my ex-colleagues (Mdm Vi, DF, TT, KY and TY). It was nice to meet them once again. Life isgoing good for them and it was really nice to know that they are living in joy.

BUt then, one of them would be going over to the Aus to finish his university studies. He would be going over there for good.

Haiz... Sad... I think i'm gonna to miss this friend..

Let's hope he would be happy and joyful there..

Here are some food for thoughts...

Hot chocolate fudge cake at Fish and Co, Borders.

Japanese Food @ my school canteen

Lost the momentum to walk.. Trying to find one

2007-03-06T14:29:00.000+08:00

Well, bro is doing his oral presentation right now, so let's hope that he will pass with flying colours.

Guess what?? This is my first time write a post in school. Sounds a bit odd, but simply don't know what to do now, i guess?

I just received the results for my two mid term tests. Upon opening it, i nearly fainted. It wasn't that well done at all, i barely scraped through the passing marks. This is the second semester and yet my results still show something else. Where have all the hardwork and effort gone to? Weeks and weeks of preparations seems to no avail. This is really quite depressing. Am i not that hardworking yet?

I have tried my best, i guess. By studying over the notes, doing practice questions and going through the parts i don't understand over and over again, and doing up my own summary and notes, explaining the concept to myself to make sure i catch them well, yet it seems that does not go anywhere. Simply depressing.

Suddenly, i don't know what i should do next... Simply lost in my way... Sighed..

Though on the other side of the coin, it shows that i have long way to go and i should push myself to go on, it just can't get me on my track. I feel like stopping and so be it.
How can i acheive my dreams. If it is me who did not prepare at all, i would just shut and give in. But...

Sometime learning to let go and carry on seems to be a must. Though painful, it would be better than to always suffer as and when it is.

So what makes you happy today??

I'm still waiting for bro to finish his oral presentation.

I guess the sweetest moment in life is when someone you hold close to suddenly call you and chat with you

2007-03-06T00:34:00.000+08:00

That would be a sweet time right, i suppose?

So this was what happened to me a while ago, when someone called in and we had a nice chat..

Thanks, bro.

Last day of CNY 07

2007-03-03T23:55:00.000+08:00

"Time and tides waits for no man!"
True.
Without any much blinking, there you go, Chinese New Year 2007 has ended. So what did you guys do for the past 15days?
I went for the career fair today, and managed to take some photos..

At the "teaching as a career" booth.

At the Spring booth

Opposite of Suntec City

A very delicious ice cream outlet...

The first (& and only) court with tentage to allow people to play in the rain?

Nearly did a stupid mistake

2007-02-25T16:46:00.000+08:00

I nearly did something stupid today - I nearly sent out a message to someone whom i know i should not at all.

Guts feeling vs Logics. I guess i need better discipline.

Hey, i'm really unable to motivate myself wor.. How??
Haha, tomorrow is the starting of school, but then, i really feel restless to motivate myself.

What else can i do?

Again and again

2007-02-24T20:48:00.000+08:00

Watching Chingay Parade live while surfing the net.. Well, cannot believe it, the live is more better than to watch it over the television. But then, there are too many people here, hence too crowded. But, it is very nice and exciting.

Haha, you know what?
Recess Week is all over.
All the slacking and rotting time are all over..
So what does it mean?

Well, quite simple actually.
It means:
(1) i cannot sleep until i wake up so naturally. That is to say, my alarm clock has to start to do its work to wake me up again.
(2) i cannot go around various part of the country to take photos for fun and laughter.
(3) i cannot meet up the friends and bro, as and when i wish, cos even my bro will have lessons too.
(4) I must start to touch the books and notes to study study study for the future again.

See, it means these.

So how have the guys and girls out there spent your wonderful and rare recess week?
Let see.. So what did i do?

Well, i meet Bro on CNY (Chinese New Year for short) eve at Vivocity to do some last minute shopping. He bought some shirt while i, haha, nothing at all. Nothing caught my eye. Well, after which, we went for our lunch and tea break at food court and Coffee Bean. Had a nice chat with him that day. (though i only know him 2 weeks, but well, that talk means the bond even closer)

So the first day of CNY, people would visit their relatives. Well, i went various part of Singapore to take photos. Birds, streets, weather, scenaries. The whole of 1st day of CNY was spent just like that.

What about the 2nd day of CNY?
Oh well, i went to visit my grandma and played mahjong with her. Actually, i did not really want to play, but she insisted that it was easy to play, won't lose much. But then.. Sighed... Lesson learnt: Do not listen to Old People when they coax you to play with them, especially when they tell you that they don't know how to play.

3rd day of CNY was a bit better.
I went to a friend's house in the early part of morning. Then to Jackson's house for a while. Followed by my daughter's house. And last but not least, to Terry's house. To sum up the day, we went to watch the Movie - Just follow Law. Not bad, people. Should go and watch the movie ba.. And to end the day, i was on the phone chatting with my bro lo.

I spent my 4th day of CNY at the gym to shed off those extra kilos gain.

Well, on the 5th day of CNY. I went for term paper meeting at Woodlands Library after which, joined the rest of the guys to attend the aftermath celebration dinner at Bowmont Garden. And to end the day, i end up chatting with bro again. (guess i have to help him pay for his phone bills)

6th day was the more depressing one.
I spent the morning part to visit my mentor at my alma mater. After which, i went for a project meeting followed by doing of homework. After which, i gave up doing homework and went home to sleep.

so today is the 7th day of CNY and well, the last day i can sleep so late and blog so much.
So i balled this morning and enjoyed the sun-tanning session.. I got a bit darker.. Haha..
And then went home to sleep through the afternoon so as to do some maths revision, in order to go for the test this monday. But then, i spent the time at Chingay. Hahaz.. Tomorrow must study hard hard.

Sighed.. School reopening soon.
Did have a chat with bro just now (if you see it, really thank you for your encouragement and motivation) Really thank you. Like what you said, i will tell myself - just 3 more months, you would be here to study together. Hahaz..

So, now what??

Recently, someone told me this, i forget who is it.
Whenever things happen, it occur to both side of the coin. If one party always choose to see things in his side of coin, then, it will be forever troublesome and nasty. Quarrels and misunderstanding would bound to happen at a frequent interval. So, it is always fair to see things in both sides of the coin.

See this whether is it true for you..

Just 3more months.. My bro is coming in..

知足常乐。。简单的四个字

2007-02-23T19:47:00.000+08:00

Just went back to my alma mater to visit one of my teacher/ mentor today, she talked about making decisions and enjoy the simplicity of life (she talked about books and joys of teaching last year and two years ago respectively). She talked about the importance of decision making and how that should not be regretted in future stage of life. Finally, she did talk about working hard in studies so as to achieve success in later stage of life.

After the 2 hours of chatting session, it shaped some of my perspectives in life and gave me the determination to carry on with the path that i've had decided months and months ago (actually, it's years, but then, trying to make myself look young, i have to substitute the word 'years' with 'months'. In this way, it will really sound very young. [sort of conning myself to believe that i'm young])

I guess life is based solely like a piece of white paper; whatever you will be in later stage of life, it would be decided by what is in that piece of paper (each person is only entitled to one piece of paper).

So today is no longer the ordinary day that i would have. Today is the last day of the vacation break and soon, i will have to go back to fight for my future.

But, i would say, i really love this week, because of many many good things that happened this week. I know such good things will occur again after july. I will definitely look forward to that. But will things turn out to be something else?

增经心痛居然变成莫生
That would be a pain, a pain that i will never forget. But, i will not hate the pain. Definitely not. No point and no reason to hate the pain, especially when you know that such pain inccured was by disappointment and disillusion.

Life ar...

Is just a journey to your final destination. You find some amazing things along the way; you will stop by to top up your car petrol reserve and chat with the Uncles and Aunties in the kiosk; you will stop for a meal and toilet break; you will see people driving with you. And the most important thing - you will only know where is your final destination but you will not know the processes you will face during the journey, this is because LIFE IS ALWAYS UNKNOWN, THAT MAKES LIFE EXCITING.

So today is the 6th day of Chinese New Year, have you done with all the catching up with friends and all? If not, what are you waiting for? Don't anticipate, act along and be happy with the present.

Day 5

2007-02-23T00:08:00.000+08:00

Well, it really feel very nice and great when i get to talk to many many people a day. (i don't know why, but, i feel very happy when i get to chat with people over the phone or even face to face. Anything, just plain chat also can)

I was with my bro on the phone just now and was chatting for almost 2 hours (handphone bills? Pay lo, help him also lo), practically no fixed topics.

Well, I went to have dinner with my team of working partners just now. I was at the Different Taste Restaurant, having a 7courses dinner lo.

But.. I only manage to take 2 photos.

Enjoy then...

Happy New Year

The Yu Sheng

The 6 in 1 dinner plate

Hey hey.. I like Uni in the sense that i have another brother again..

2007-02-21T01:41:00.000+08:00

Well, after the sad incident i had with someone who don't reciprocate, it is sort of a period of darkness and disillusions for me..
But, i'm quite happy that i did not give up or restricted myself in anyway.

I thank the presence of Cashflow Games and the cashflow booth we had have in the school. It gave me a chance to find a new brother lo..

Yup...
Sweet times.. It is always good to make more friends and know some more good brothers..

Chinese New Year

2007-02-19T23:39:00.000+08:00

As years goes by, it seems that the ambience for Chinese New Year is getting weaker and weaker here. The main purpose of this festive and significant season seems to deviate from generation to generation. The preparations, the crowds, the reasons and the ambience seems to be diminishing, and in many years to come, i guess no one might want to celebrate this festival.

I was in a cab just now and the taxi driver shared his experiences about the new year he had in the past and what he was enjoying now. He sounded very sad and full of disillusions, it seems that he have see no future for this festive season. Do you feel the same? If you ask me, i would say Yes and No.

YES - It is an open secret that most of my family-relatives are competitive in nature. Whenever you bump into them, they would compare everything in life; careers, studies, life and many more. I simply get sick and tired of such things. I mean, yes, you can compare, but should not do to an extent that you degraded someone and make him feel so miserable and sad. He's, afterall, a human. A human that has every right to choose what he wants and hope. A human that has every right to decide what he wants. He does not owe anyone a living. Let him be, guide him if you must. But not to degrade him so as to make yourself feel better.

NO - Chinese New Year is always a time where holidays can be fully used to play and have fun. As for me, I have found a new good brother this new year. We spent our whole saturday (Chinese New Year eve) talking at Vivocity and share secrets around. Well, maybe Simin is right - treasure your loved ones, you would never know when you might not have the chance to do so. Yeah, treasure them, love them, cherish them.

I guess this festival is a good reason for me to leave the old feelings and look for new hopes. Inactive things/people/ stuffs are forever inactive, there is completely no point for me to send over any greeting cards and any stuffs to show i care. Put off and be happy.

Yup...

Anyway, just would like to take this opportunity to thank my bro for giving my such a good time.
Happy New Year, all..

Metamorphosing; Capturing the sweetness in life

I wonder when..

No matter how fast i tried to walk, i'm always having this feeling of confusion and loss.

The 135th post of the blog.. A new beginning and a new life in me

Wondering the wonders in my life

Just a few blinks, 2008 is ending soon.

Suddenly, i realized...

Wonder..

Sometimes, i think i'm a little hot tempered. And sometimes, i think i'm a bit demanding

I just feeling a deep sense of satisfaction

少年童真随这一分一秒而流失， 人际关系随着一分一秒而变微薄

Haha, today is a funny day

Today is mid-autumn festival

Suddenly...

Mixed feeling, i guess

不知何故。。

Hmmmm... Simplicity is everything.. Students are best rewards to things..

Hmm.. what's wrong in me?

One year...

hmmm... is it good if you don't know what are you fuss over?

Confusing life?

小情歌

悠闲悠闲， 真的是有很多嫌事

选了这条路，就不要后悔！

随着思维的增长，我也变了？

Hmm, i guess i'm really in love in mentoring

Suddenly, i feel a little older

Out a sudden, i wonder what i'm wondering about

In a flashback

One week -> 2 gatherings. More to come? Yes!

The start of the new year this year seems to have made my year a nice and fulfilling

I feel lik

It has been 9 years, so what's the differences?

Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow....

Craps

Well, life just.... goes on, i think

Just...

Just so blank

Moving ahead..

What i have been missing, and what i'm looking forward to

When MSN nick tells you all, yet you cannot probe at all

What's up lately?

Steamboat Lunch last friday

Just feeling so indifferent

A small fish in a vast and choppy ocean

A small fish in a vast and choppy ocean

Just a cross road..

寻找回真正的我。。

old le, getting naggy lately.. haha

一步一脚印， 会有这一刻的到来吗？

听着寂寞在心里呐喊

Nothing, just drop by to blog blog lo

Dim sum, anybody?

A near-miss, lucky for me.

Feeling lighter

Just had a chat

Just so happy

Haiz..

An orange that think that it is a papaya

I'm actually getting a little sleepless

Another gathering

Sentosa Trip Part II

yet another gathering

It's late night

There are so many things happening around, and that only makes us (Revolver) to know that we are getting older and older

see this

Food..

Sentosa trip

Enriching and Empowering your life!

Just do it, and happyily face it..

Changing new image - Phase I

Somehow it is good to be busy than slacking one corner doing nothing at all

How's the holiday?

想了又想..

Chorus of the dreams

Just so busy and tired lately.. As the days are near... you realised that the people are stack up with a lot of stress

A new song to talk about today

So what's happening today?

Have you ever thought of this interesting question(s)?

Although it is just a meet up, it is still so SWEET and nice.

少年童真随这一分一秒而流失，人际关系随着一分一秒而变微薄

悠闲悠闲，真的是有很多嫌事

一步一脚印，会有这一刻的到来吗？

你失恋陪你哭个痛快，你跌倒借你勇气站起来。。

知足常乐。。简单的四个字